Hi guys! So I won't be posting here anymore, something I just don't like about this account. Perhaps its the name.. sounds like a name a 13 year old kid who loves G-Unit would have. Anyway.. also got it to kinda.. filter my friends list. I noticed when I stopped coming to LJ it was because a lot of the people I never talked to and such so it was kind of like clogged space. The people who I've added already know who they are. I love reading your guys' journals the most and feel I connect with you in one way or another. Not to say I don't enjoy everyone's journal, jsut more than others :D. If I didn't add you don't worry... just message me here or on my new account... http://crappy-patty.livejournal.com/ and I'll most likely add you back :).

Ciao~

So I finally made one. Perhaps it'll make me take more pictures. Anyway, if you want to befriend me there or just browse my atm small library of images, click the link :)

http://www.flickr.com/photos/crappy_patty

Sorry again for disappearing. A long time female friend called which totally caught me off guard. I haven't talked to her in over 6 years and she told me she was in Lubbock for the summer and wanted to see if I wanted to come out there and catch up. I did, for a week. It was interesting. Not THAT kind of interesting, but the kind of interesting when two people with rough history who haven't seen each other for 6 years meet. It wasn't bad though, just kind awkard. The hotel I stayed at sucked balls though, the breakfast gave me stomach ache every day (yet I still ate it.. idk)

My long time friend Sean is going to basic training after the 4th. I don't know how I feel about it though. I've known him since I was like 2 and we've always remained close. I asked him, wait.. lemme change that, begged him to come visit before he left (I visited him the previously 4 times) and he said he would ask his parents to see me as a graduation present. His parents said it would be okay but he never said he was coming. I asked a few times asking when he is coming and if he needed help with plane tickets cause my mom could hook him up. However, he kept telling me "I don't know yet man, I'm with my girlfriend." I was kind of like, what the hell? So are you coming or not? Guess not cause I didn't talk to him till maybe 4 days ago? It upset me. Maybe I'm just being greedy and selfish, but I didn't think 1 week out of his summer was too much to see his best friend since 2 years old. When he messaged me on Facebook saying "SPURS SUCK!!!!". I kind just stared at it for awhile and said wow, that's all you really have to say? I'm trying not to let it get to me but it is. It should also be noted that I've tried to call/talk to him numerous ammounts of time yet I get no responds or a 5 minute conversation consiting of Yeahs and Okays.

Oh whatever, maybe we'll talk some day.

My dad comes home today, darn. It's been raining here the past could of weeks and the hillside in our backyard needs to be done. I don't mind helping in the backyard at all, I actually love yard work, but not when my dad is telling me. He likes to make everything 10000 times harder and at 6 in the morning :| Hopefully he's too tired to work on it when he gets back today.. and then it's supposed to rain tomorrow and Saturday. I hope not Saturday though cause it's the forth and that means block party!

Ahh, time to read your journals nao!

This post may jump all around to what I've been doing, what I did today, and what's going to happen.. so be prepared hah. I'm just going to write whatever comes to my head.

Germany was very nice, even though the weather wasn't the best. That was kind of expected though, every time I go see my family there it's always rainy. But I got a chance to catch up with a lot of my cousins. I never knew I was so close to them. I think its more of an age thing. When I was a bit younger I used to think that they were rather annoying. I look now and I feel kind of bad about that. They were always all over me (in a clingy way, always wanted to hang with this cousin when I just wanted to chill). Now I kind of understand why they are like that and it doesn't bother me anymore. Turns out that they are just rather interested and envious of me that I live and go to school in the states. My one cousin Sandra wants to visit or rather live here so bad. I just hung out with them a lot and they were just so interested about my first year in University and all that stuff, so it was nice to hang with them. I'mm have some pictures later hopefully, my sister has to find where she put her camera.

Speaking of rain (rather long ago...) it getting to that El Nino or whatever time of the year here in El Paso. I'm actually here for the Summer than in Arizona. But anyway, it's been raining a lot lately. It seems like the rain followed me from Germany. Blargh. It doesn't really matter though cause I don't do much here anyway. One, here isn't anything to do, no matter how hard I try and two, there is no one here, and the people who are here I want to avoid. Maybe I shouldn't avoid them and let bygones be bygones, but it's certain things I just don't want to let go. One person being Shannah, how she kind of played me. I would really like to see her but I really don't care for her at all. It's been bugging me and something on my mind since before break even started. I seems I have a hard time letting go of people who I really cared and gave a damn about, regardless of how they treated me. Probably a bad trait to have, hopefully something I can lose later on. Don't get me wrong, it's not an obsessive "Oh my god I can't live without you" ordeal, its just rather the memories of the good times that are hard to get rid of.

Speaking of memories, a lost dog came to our house today. He was a puppy husky dog and was the cutest thing ever.It reminded me of my dog Brandy. She was a black (I think they're only black..) Schipperke. I really miss her. She passed away a few years ago, cutest damn thing ever. I want another dog similar to her sometime in the future. The dog owners came and picked up the husky though I guess. I didn't answer the door but I figured it was the owners since the dog was gone when the door closed.

Lastly, we're (Daniel, Jason, unknown person, and I) are almost set on our condo. Jason's mom paid for the security deposit for us which was really nice. It's a 4 bedroom condo with 2 bathrooms, a laundry room, kitchen, family room, and there is a pool too. Nice, gated community which is like 15 minutes walking (prob like 2 or 3 biking) from campus. It's going to be about 400 a month for each of us. The reason why I say unknown person is because James, the 4th guy who was supposed to move in with us, might be staying on campus next semester because of some Residents Hall club. Kind of lame because this is something we wanted to avoid, but I suppose it's better than while we are paying for rent...

Anyway.. good place to stop I suppose... lots more but I don't want to bore you to death :) Cheers~

Hey guys... I'm back! I've been a bit rather busy *coughslazycoughs* lately with the updates (obviously). I've been rather busy.. going back to El Paso.. seeing some friends for the better and worse, and I went to Germany for a few weeks. Finally Back in El Paso and have a chance to settle with myself without a bunch of bullishh. Will post some updates as the day goes on, Ciao~ :)

Calculus 3, 72%. So Close, but FUCK YEAH. Suck on mah balls mathematics!

So being a Star Wars nerd I never like Star Trek at all, but my friend insisted I go see Star Trek cause it was so omfg cool. 

Basically, I didn't enjoy it. Not in a biased sense because I think Star Wars is better than Star Trek and Trek will always suck. The story was decent, I guess.. didn't throw me away. The thing that killed it for me was the overuse of CGI (as most movie now days). Movie just looked really lame imo. And the acting sucked. Oh well.

Wee is 104 outside today.

I could be cool like other people and have a 4 hour job, no school, and just drink and be retarded all day.

Man, how COOL would that be?

Fuck finals.

I'm so tired, it's not even funny. You get done with the last day of classes and you think HOORAY! I'M DONE! But NOT, you have do study more than you ever have all semester.

Sadface.

Too all of those who still have befriended me, you are to kind. This summer you'll see a bunch of activities, I'll be busy woo (not that kind of busy that diverts my attention from lj)

And she and I will treat each other right...

success  and  fairyminuswings !!!

I hope you two have good ones! 8)

So I think I'm getting closer with Daniel's roommate (not in that way...). He's in two classes on mine we we talk and see each other more often. I thought he was a douche bag at first but after getting to know him he's not too bad. I was more of the impression he first gave off to me. It was sort of like a "I'm the big bad boss" type of ordeal. We have a lot in common and such and feel the same on a lot of subjects, dood is pretty cool.

Speaking of which, next semester Daniel, Jason, James (Daniel's roommate), and I are planning on getting a 4 bedroom condo. It's 1200 a month so its 300 spilts 4 days (not including utilities but we'll work that out). It's so much cheaper than living on campus, and its right next to it too. On top of that.. its like 390839083 times more the space, 2 bathrooms, MY OWN ROOM, and a kitchen. Here at this dorm I have NO space at all.. share 1 bathroom with 4 guys (roommate + 2 suite mates), have to share the kitchen with the whole floor (which I don't like) and share the same room with my roommate. And I pay about 1500 (or maybe 2000) a year for this SHIT (literally). I was going to live in San Pablo (the dorms daniel is currently staying in) and that's going to be about 6000 for next year. That's about 2400 more I would pay if I don't move into that condo. So hopefully it'll work out. Either I can get a job now/when we move in or I can save up all the money that I get working this summer. EIther way, I want to move into that place. Just thinking of it.. my own damn room.. ahh so nice! Then I don't have to worry about my roommate waking up when I'm playing games at night (okay.. sorry for the little nerdness there)

Things have been surprisingly nice lately. I'm still without a bike.. and honestly it's really hard. I was about 5-10 mins late to a lot of my classes (most of schedule was set close so I could be done with school quick by having classes next to each other. I would make it to classes in about 4 mins biking what takes me about 15-20 walking) at first, but I'm leaving a bit earlier so I'm getting there on time. I can't really go anywhere cause a lot of the people i know or the things i do involve me getting around on a bike (shucks). The work load has been a lot but nothing I can't handle. I feel it's a good balance. And the weather is so nice. About 90 today with clear skys and a nice cool night.

Ahh bio lab in the morning though.. I have to get up extra early to go print my english paper, buy a folder, and print my bio homework. I should go to bed! Which I think I will!

Have a good tomorrow people!~<3:)

Blargh! Every job requires previous something experience I don't have! It's like the work and volunteer work that I've done I did for nothing. :(
It feels like that one commercial "I can't a job because I have no skills.. I have no skills because...." Minus the I didn't go to school part hah.

Time to clean, woo.

Woo Earth Hour was today! I pretty much do it every day but I think it's amazing how much awareness it's bringing to Global Warming. A few of my friends are telling me they don't notice and it's not doing anything but they're wrong. I'm noticing not just on campus but all around the city so many more recycling bins, more people at the recycling place, and more lights are turned off during the day and night. It's amazing how much people are paying more attention to this and it makes me happy.

Woo go people!

When I read through people journal and here shit that happening to them and I look back at my post, I just go "What the fuck am I bitching about?". Some of you guys are going through some crazy stuff. Those of you who are I hope you make it through. wontbreakme I'll pray for Bobby and hope that he'll have a safe return to you! I've lost a lot of friend over there and it's tough not being able to talk to 'em.
But sorry, sorry about the faggish post complaining about stupid shit. I promise I'll post happier stuff and leave the crap outta here!

I had my Calc III test today, which I think I anally raped. I went in there, and destroyed that sucked in 25 minutes. That's including going back and looking over my work. I was so focused, it felt good. I think it was the first really good test I've taken since the year started. My BIO and Digital Design test kicked my ass though. 50 and a 38.4 :/. I really feel like I'm going to finish off the year strong, I think the math test really boosted my confidence. Currently my grades are looking like: A/high B in English, A/high B in Java class, B in Math, D in Digital Design, and an F (almost a D) in BIO. It's been really hard to juggle everything, 16 credits are a bitch. Last semester I hope 9 and it was so much smooth. I need to just make more time in my schedule. Every weekend I want to read for BIO. I'm going to go in with Haley this weekend and talk to the professor for some studying tips. I think the teacher is going to curve the grade to an 85 (being an A). I really hope so. That way IF i got a D, it'd be a C. Hopefully I can get a C and that would curve to a B. My Digital Design grade should raise rapidly because the test right now outweigh everything else we've done. It'll balance out and I'm aiming for a C. By the end of the year I hope my grades look like English A, Java B, Math B, Digital Design C, and BIO C (at minimum).

So I'm pretty much over the fact my bike got stolen. It's gone and there's not much I can do about it. I filed a police report cause you never know. I'm keeping an eye out though for bike racks around campus and maybe I might spot it. Some people are such douchebags, I wish this world never had scums like that. Getting off on other people's loses. Whatever that's life. I've already started looking for another one. My parents might help me out since they're getting their taxes done this week, but bills are more important so I don't blame them if they don't. REI is having a close-out sale on some bikes. Pretty nice and cheap, but I really want a road bike. There aren't many on their and the ones there are are really expensive. The cheapest one was 628 or so but I really didn't like the colors. There is also a 20% sale on all items for REI members. There was a nice bike that I saw which I'm trying to get. It'll be about 600.

( Bike pic. )

It might be awhile before I get it but we'll see what happens tomorrow. I sent my mom an e-mail about it. If I do get one though, I think I'm just going to put the bike in my room. Fuck those bike racks. The only problem is there is no room in the room for a bike, so I'm going to talk to my rommate about it. Hopefully he won't care and we can make some space or something.

I'm not sure if I'm going to Killswitch and Disturbed anymore. Daniel said he was going to buy the tickets but he never told me if he got em. I might just buy my own who knows. I want to try to go to the botantical garden this weekend but I have no way to getting there. Losing my bike was like getting my car stolen :(. Hopefully I can figure this all out.

Anywhoo, if you made it through this post... salute! lol

Oh, and Streetlight Manifesto is sick... I forget how awesome ska music is when I don't listen to it.

Someone stole my fucking bike. I have the lock, which is a metal fucking lock (50 dollars, not a cheap slingy one) which is cut in half. I really feel like causing much pain to something. I'm so pissed I'm shaking. I wish my roommate would know how pissed I was.

I really, really, really want to fucking killing something.

Oh my fucking god...

HI WORLD CARE TO FUCK MY LIFE ANYMORE? THANKS!

So after some venting about shit with Daniel, working on my English paper, and a good nap I'm cooled now. I actually think it's kind of funny. It's just ridiculous that this mouse has stopped working twice (this next one will be my third) withing 3 months. Both time it was the left click button. I'm really neglecting to get another one because it actually IS the best mouse (gaming one at least) that I've used for its price. Oh well... I hopefully I'm getting a new one by Monday/Tuesday or if I can replace this one it doesn't take a whole two weeks.

Star Wars VI on Spike T.V., Hell yeah.

Fucking FUCK... My Mouse and Keyboard aren't working.. A FUCKING GAIN. this is the 2nd time I'm going to return them. Fucking ruined my day. Fuck fuck fuck.

Even more good news to kill the 50 I just got on my Bio test, I'm going to Music As A Weapon next week which Killswitch Engage and Disturbed will be playing, woo!

50 on my Bio exam. I had at 62 in that class.. well on my way to a 70 now I have a 58 again. Fuck fuck fuck... ahh FML.. no no no.. FMB (Fuck my Biology...)

Oh well, nothing will ruin this great weekend!